Mother's Day roses

One white and one pink rose for each of our angels.

Kevin surprised me with a dozen roses for Mother's Day after work.  He got six white roses and six pink roses; one of each color for each of our angels.  I miss our babies every day, but this Mother's Day is different.  One year ago on Mother's Day morning, I went through "labor" as I miscarried our last pregnancy.  It was a joyous and thankful day for the millions of other mothers in the world, and for me, my world crashed again.

Like I said, though, one year later, our world is different.  The pain has lessened, as it usually does with time.  I have so much to be thankful for, and the hurt doesn't overpower the happiness as much.  Kevin and I have never been closer or happier.  We are focusing on our health.  We are hopeful about our adoption plans.  That doesn't mean I don't have bad days or rough moments.  My sister's pregnancy is especially hard.  It reminds me of all of my losses.  In general, though, I have to say that it feels good to love life again and to have things to look forward to.

So I am looking forward to this Mother's Day.  I can hopefully spend it with my mom, who is the most amazing mother in the world, and I will see my roses and think of my babies playing in Heaven.  With the most amazing man beside me and our faith in God's plan, right now, the future is looking bright. ♥